Got my mohawk straight! My legs nice and smooth! My make-up right (even though I didn't do my eyebrows)! And I'm ready to get it popping for the BET awards, ya heard?!

THREESOME THURSDAYS!!!

This is the DJ for tonight! When I tell you he's a beast, I ain't lying! One of the BEST DJ's around! Tonight - we're bringing good music back. This ain't your top 40s shit! Here is just a LITTLE something of what my boy can do!!!

 

Tonight I'm doing it BIG at Inferno's! I can't wait! It's going to be a GREAT night with GREAT people! Come mess with your girl! If you come in packs of 3s, you're all in FREE! It doesn't get any better then that!!! Not only that, this is where the BEST music in the city is, HANDS DOWN! 

With that being said, last night was ELECTRIFYING!

First - I did a gazillion  interviews for Brandon Miltch's www.networkinginatlanta.com event at Opera. I ended up falling into a Lil John video and popping bottles with Brandon, his lovely wife, my girl JLYN SOOPASTAR, and docugraphix.

Secondly,I got to hang out with the KS Boyz for their Weird Wednesdays, which was GREAT! I really digging their whole squad too! Sweetie pies!!!

Thirdly - I ended up landing some pretty dope gigs.

Fourthly - I looked fabulous in my Yadiyda clothing! I can finally fit her model stuff! (well, some of them). I am officially 15lbs lighter and LOOOOVE my new trainer Elissa! She's a BEAST! 

I'm also super excited because my producer is going to see the spot for the SYPHER360 show tonight! WoooHooo!

Syph

RAT

Today feels like a baaaad day. Everything is scattered. Everything is tattered.
But that's not true either. My defenses are down, my fight has settled.
They say it's easy to be sad and hard to be happy.
I say it's easy to be happy when you ignore your sad.
But it is so much harder to ignore your happy then your sad.
These are the moments you want to sleep.
Nightmares are better then your walking reality.
There is nothing worse then when the people that love you lose faith in you.
Especially when you've wronged them and are too afraid to admit it.
So you hide.
And when you hide, you feel like a rat.
A lowly nasty scuttling greasy tailed rat that doesn't have the guts to take your food out right.
Instead, you lurk in the darkness hoping to sneak your fill.
Leaving your surroundings tainted with your residue.
Nobody likes rats.
I feel like a rat right now.
Hiding in my shame.
I need to switch animals.
Be a lioness or something.
Walk with my shoulders strong and head high.
Face the light despite my naked truths.
I should be shoooed and trampled on and screamed at!
If I make it past the assaults, I won't be considered brave, but I would be.
Adversity builds character...
I'm so afraid right now I'm pretending to be another person.
If it weren't for these words, I would have fooled myself into false action.
This action, the blurting of hidden truth to pad, is too real.
Can't pretend reality is a fallacy.
Must stand tall and face your demons.
Let them rear their ugly head for all to see.
There is no turning back - I'm forcing myself to the light.
The hardest part. After all is said and done.
Is to humbly forgive yourself and keep it moving.
You may never be forgiven nor understood.
But you must stand by the actions you are responsible for.
Today must be a good day.
All the scattered pieces picked up and put in it's place.
All the tattered pieces sewn back together again.
Although scarred...still usable.
You only live once.
How do you want to be remembered?