Tuesday, August 24, 2010

It's so hard to say good-bye to yesterday.


Why is it so hard to let go? Whether it's someone you love, a pair of jeans that haven't fit you in ions, or a business venture that just ain't working - the thought of letting go is similar to the fear of death. I made a big decision yesterday, slept on it, and stuck to it. I've decided to quit WTFonlineradio.com. Its crazy because it feels like I'm turning my back on my baby that I carried for months in my womb, and then allowed to suckle my breast, and before I could see her crawl, I put her in a basket and set her in front of a church.

It's not what you think it is. I don't have beef with my co-hosts. I love them to death. (Make sure you follow them on twitter! @rawdog_wtf @cashcarter_wtf @ashika_mscali @wtfonlineradio). I am not burned out - tired - but still got a whole lot of candle left to light the world with. But there is this situation with the location we're at in which I fear I'll kill somebody - literally. This dude is just relentless in his bullshit and I'm fed up. I don't like negativity around me, and I'm certainly NOT going to allow this CLOWN to turn me into a beast. I've been cordial, helpful, and respectful. I will not and cannot be disrespected by anybody, I don't care what they may have for me. I don't need anything from someone that can't show me respect. (Unless you're my momma, momma gets away with a lot) lol.

With that being said - I will be uploading all the footage to www.youtube.com/sistasypher if you want to take a peek at the past 6 months on the show. I had good times and will NEVER forget it. I wish them the best and hope that all the hard work and labor we put into manifests into something big. I'm proud to be a part of it's growth. WWW.WTFONLINERADIO.com

Shouts out to The Great Bandit King, Docugraphix, Xtra Multi Media Group, Brad, Hermina, James, Shay, Nic, and Cori "The Closer" Thomas for all the hard work they put in. (Pardon me for anybody I forgot).

Monday, August 23, 2010

Back on my Do or Die Mission

It's 5:17 in the morning. I got up at 4:30, and I'm already done with my morning pages, and almost breakfast. I've been slipping hard! But I ain't tripping on that. I recognize that when I was the most disciplined with my work out regimen, I got up EARLY and got it out of the way first. So here I am. Hoping to be at Bally's by 6am and getting a solid hour in. At this time, it's time for me to realign myself and propel myself to higher heights with my EVERYTHING. They say time waits for no man, and I am no exception. I decided to reach back and see where I am with my bucket list. Here we go:

1. Get a six pack - On my way to the gym now, but I'm about at a 0 on my list SMH.
2. Invest in some stock - haven't even researched it
3. Get nominated for something - I got nominated for ATL's HOTTEST HOST & INTERNET RADIO STATION - PLEASE GO VOTE NOW: www.ATLCLUBAWARDS.com. Make sure to vote for me and WTFOnlineRadio.com
4. Mentor somebody - technically haven't found anyone to mentor yet 
5. Get My Bio Done - no bio yet -smh
6. Learn to ride a motorcycle - don't even know if I really want to do this anymore - may have to switch this one out
7. Spend a weekend on a yacht - haven't gotten close
8. Get 5,000 twitter friends - at a little over 1,000. Gonna buy Jawar's book so I can pick that up some
9. Help make somebody famous - working on KS Boyz, Dahlia von Danger, and Altered
10. Go see a pro football game - It's football season, I think this one is coming soon
11. Pose for a national eye candy magazine - Have to get a little more sexy for this one
12. Live COMPLETELY alone - Don't know if this is possible due to Jason...
13. Learn to make sushi - not even close
14. Record a rap song (or a verse on one) LMAO - a couple of people to record this with me...I think I'ma be able to do it
15. Join the mile high club - haven't even been on a plane yet this year...that's different for me
16. Forgive someone I HATE - I've forgiven EVERYBODY I hate...learning to forgive the things about me I ain't digging.
17. Take nude pictures - traveled all the way to Mississippi for this one
18. Get a Brazilian (ouch!) - still ain't done this one...waiting for it to get cooler...always an excuse here. LOL
19. Share my poetry publicly at a spoken word venue - haven't even memorized one yet
20. Start my blog - did this, now need to maintain it.
21. Take salsa classes - nope
22. Go skydiving -nope
23. Find a script to direct a full length movie - nope
24. Make somebody $100,000. -nope
25. Go white water rafting - nope
26. Go to a 25 and over party - nope
27. Get mentioned in a National Publication -nope
28. Start writing my memoirs - nope
29. Sing Karaoke by myself (never done that) -nope
30. Finish 10 MYB Production Skits - nope


Shameful. I've ONLY done 4 things on my list and I've only got 6 months left till my birthday. I guess I need to get on it! I'ma be soooo whack if I don't do at least half of these things. Sigh. Today I choose a poem to memorize. That shouldn't be so hard.


Off to the gym! Wish me luck!!!