30 Things to do Before I'm 30

I've been ashamed of certain yearnings that I've had and made excuses for not wanting them. I either acted like I was too good to do something (like take eye candy pictures) or too humble to want something (get nominated for something). When I really analyze myself, there are a bunch of things that I want or want to do that will make me feel pretty cool. It doesn't matter to me why or what it may represent to somebody else. If I want to pose nude before I lose my youth so I can remember my body, so what? Who cares what my mother or some critic may think. I don't want to live with too many regrets that were avoidable. It may be pretentious to want 5,000 twitter friends, but the truth is, I feel cool that I maxed out my Facebook page and have 30,000 Myspace friends. Why am I pretending? In the same token, fear and laziness have stopped me from claiming other curiosities. I can't dance, so I don't want to look stupid taking salsa classes. it's not even about that - it's about learning something new and having fun and not hiding behind fear. I might always suck at it, but I bet I'll feel great in my high heels with a sexy flowing dress twirling around a little bit with somebody, so why not go for it?

With that being said, here is a list I posted on Facebook 2 months ago of 30 Things to do Before I'm 30. I will be 30 February 1st, and am proud to have done ONE thing on this list (#20 - start my blog). Yupee! With that being said, I need all of your support, so please help me achieve these goals any way you can! I'm going into my 30s a Queen, chin up, shoulders back, long strides.

1. Get a six pack
2. Invest in some stock
3. Get nominated for something
4. Mentor somebody
5. Get My Bio Done
6. Learn to ride a motorcycle
7. Spend a weekend on a yacht
8. Get 5,000 twitter friends
9. Help make somebody famous
10. Go see a pro football game
11. Pose for a national eye candy magazine
12. Live COMPLETELY alone
13. Learn to make sushi
14. Record a rap song (or a verse on one) LMAO
15. Join the mile high club
16. Forgive someone I HATE
17. Take nude pictures
18. Get a Brazilian (ouch!)
19. Share my poetry publicly at a spoken word venue
20. Start my blog
21. Take salsa classes
22. Go skydiving
23. Find a script to direct a full length movie
24. Make somebody $100,000.
25. Go white water rafting
26. Go to a 25 and over party
27. Get mentioned in a National Publication
28. Start writing my memoirs
29. Sing Karaoke by myself (never done that)
30. Finish 10 MYB Production Skits

"I got my feet on the ground, I don't go to sleep to dream." Help me get it!
PS: I'm 146lbs!!! :) Lost 6lbs in 4 days!!! :) I actually did P90X last night b4 I went to bed...probably NOT happening tonight. :(

The only thing that remains constant is change. This is one of the oldest adages that we seem to forget when we make decisions. I don't know how often I hear people say they are cleaning house and want to cut people off. It's funny because I always thought I was a forgiving person and didn't hold grudges, but this year, I reacquainted with several people that I had written off for life. Some of them I purposely reached out to in an attempt to heal and face old wounds. Others came to me and I know it's cause I called them subconsciously, deeply wanting closure. Honestly it doesn't even matter who was right or wrong - time heals old wounds and people are allowed to change. I only have two more people I need to gain closure from - one of them a former best friend who cheated on me with my boyfriend, the other someone that threatened the life of my family. Some say this is a can of worms that should stay closed. I believe that your worst enemies should be treated like your best friends - that is something a very wise man told me and although I haven't mastered it yet - it has taught me great patience and wisdom.

And just when I thought I would never cut any body off again - I have cut somebody off today. Ironic, huh? I don't know for how long, but it is an unhealthy relationship. I'm just happy that I'm doing it at a time when I'm not angry, I just see the bigger picture and need to protect my business. I've been working with this person for a year, but it has been stagnant. I could point the finger, but I truly believe we create our own realities so it's my fault. I've known this for quite some time and have been trying to rectify it. In a way, it was a test to see if I could actually change somebody and their circumstances through love and understanding, but now, I just realize that if I keep doing the same things with no change - I'm just insane. I'm wondering what your thoughts are of this? Here's a poem I wrote this morning about this:

I tried everything to stick by you

but my colors couldn't break your blue

My attempts to fix things you screwed

So now my compassion for you I outgrew.

A full year of dealing with you has passed

Can't help but feel guilt for failing your ass

Am I wrong for running away

Even though you never protected me?

Money I lent, you never gave back

All your words always felt like attacks

I knew you were weak so I just let it slide

But to my unwavering love, you were desensitized

At the end of the day, I must call a spade a spade

You used my honey and that cuts like a blade

I chose to stick by you so I charge it to the game

I'm moving on knowing there's no one to blame

You've proved to be exactly what you've always been

My hopes for you were not your dreams

I'm trying to come to terms for bailing out

I ride or die for people, that's what I'm about

But the truth is, you've never been a friend

All you brought to me was problem after problem

Your talents are like the songs of the sirens

They hoodwink people into temporary blindness

But as soon as the melody dissipates

you realize that it was just bait

I'm tired of taking bites that don't satisfy

if I keep on this path, then I'm a walking lie

It's time for me to own up to the truth

the fact is - I don't really like you

I tried and tried and tried again

But this time I'm out homie - disappearing like David Blain

As for my goals...

1) Practicing the laws of The Diamond Cutter

I was generous with my time and resources half of my day (didn't work on a database for a friend that I promised to complete or help my ma with her dresser although I could have spent less time on FaceBook)

Didn't engage in talk that splits people up (but mentally was PISSED off with several things - A person that made a very insensitive comment on FB and I judged someone for supporting something I didn't agree with).

2) Exercising, eating well, and meditating daily - COMPLETELY stop smoking and drinking

149lbs Didn't smoke or drink. Didn't exercise (Day 2 of P90X! I will try and do it before I go to bed. It's funny how your mind can play tricks on you. My friend Ookie said that Plyometrics was going to kick my ass, so I've been scared since day 1 kicked my ass and he said it was easy. Gotta do it anyway! Eating well? Let's just say I followed one third of my diet but cheated with some "Sticky Boobas" (corn tortillas with melted cheese on top) CHEESE MESSES ME UP EVERY TIME. And as for the meditating - I'll get that in tonight after I work out too.

3) To stop saying NO to opportunities due to FEAR and/or LAZINESS.

I did something I've been afraid of for quite some time, and that was making an important decision on the direction of my career with my manager.

I better get to working out before I say it's too late! My bed time is 3am! Gotta get up early to take my baby brother to Home Depot on Sydney Marcus to make a butterfly house. 3pm meet me at Freedom Parkway for a huge PILLOW FIGHT!

Special Shout

To my dear friend and wonderfully talented photographer for taking my Hear No Evil, Speak No Evil, Hear No Evil photo (blog header picture) and just being a great all around person:

Jarek James of Jamagination. Make sure to check out his work and join his social networks: myspace.com/jamagination, facebook.com/jarekjames, twitter.com/jamagine, youtube.com/jamagination, modelmayhem.com/jarekjames

Sypher 360

Hey Friends,

Thank you so much for showing interest in my blog: Sypher 360.

A "cipher" is a puzzle that must be figured out. Sypher 360 is my journey to putting the pieces of the puzzle together. My aim is to inspire change and help people achieve success and self-awareness through this blog. I've been in the game for 12 years and am just now experiencing the joys and fruits of my labors and most importantly, my life. My goal is to share my life with you honestly so you can learn from all the mistakes I've made in the past and watch how they're being rectified and the challenges that come with it.

Many of you know me as Sypher or Sista Sypher or The Queen of the Mic. My titles have included (but are not limited to) Producer/Director for Video City in New York, On Air Personality for Foxie 107, Director of Marketing for Grip Magazine, Editor for Xcitement Magazine, Master of Ceremonies and DJ (for 1000s of events), Manager to several artists and models, Actress, Director, Assistant Director, & Writer. At 29 years old, I have been blessed with a lifetime of experience in the entertainment field.

The truth is, with all the bootleg celebrity that I have, I have gained moderate success to say the least. For someone that speaks several languages, been all over the world, held pretty prestigious positions, I don't have as much to prove for it as I should. My story is filled with great successes tainted with alcohol & drug abuse, dishonesty, bad relationships and self-hate. Those that KNOW me know this to be true - most of you don't know me and probably thought I had all my shit together as I struggled to achieve my dreams.

Since November of last year, my life took a 360 degree turn in the most wonderful direction. I read a book called "The Diamond Cutter" and suddenly all the mixed up puzzle pieces in my life started to come together. I've always been somebody that LOVED people, and for this, I believe I've been saved a horrible plight. The problem is, I didn't always know how to love people properly . This blog is one of self discovery, growth, and maturity and I am honored (though frightened) to share it with you. You will see me NAKED and I hope this will give you the strength to do what is necessary to not only be a happier more complete person, but to make your mark in the world in a profound way as I know I now have the tools to do.

There are 3 things that I am dedicating myself to for a full year starting today:

1) Practicing the laws of The Diamond Cutter book - if you haven't read it, GET IT NOW!

2) Exercising every day, eating well, and COMPLETELY stop smoking and drinking - My goal is to have a 6 pack by the time I'm 30 (February 1st 2011). As you know - one of the most challenging things, mentally and physically, is losing weight and achieving the body that you want, especially when you reach a certain age.

3)To stop saying NO to opportunities due to FEAR. I will set out to do EVERYTHING I've every dreamed of. (I'll post my 30 things to do before I'm 30 blog in a couple of days).

My theory is that if I dedicate myself to the principles of the Diamond Cutter (which i will explain more in detail each day) and grab my nuts and do things I was previously scared of (although I've just admitted it), I will be a powerhouse to be reckoned with. Not only will I be financially sound, but will be responsible for helping many others achieve well-balanced happiness and success. I want to die knowing that I put smiles on every face I came in contact with through empowerment.

With that being said - I will leave you with a poem that I wrote this morning:

My Life Twinkles

by Sonia "Sypher" Tyler

Waking up is a joy
Sleeping is too
It doesn't matter if my eyes are opened or closed
All the images I have are sprinkled with Pixie Dust
My Life Twinkles

Songs breeze effortlessly past my lips
I'm surrounded with excitement and hope
Even darkness is filled with wonder
What I can't see intrigues me

Set backs are more time to learn
Sick days force me to take time to read a new book
People's pain is my opportunity to make yet another person smile
Failure is closer to success

My face shines
I look in the mirror LOVE what I see
My imperfections are perfect, unique, and personal
I don't spend time trying to look good
cause I AM good.
My Life Twinkles

You can see it in my eyes
and the gleam of my smile
You can hear the twinkle doing back flips in my laughter
It vibrates on the sidewalk in my gay shadow

Lovers can't get enough
Fighters relax and breathe
Skeptics have a mind freeze
Liars have no need to talk
Haters let the chip fall
Fronters find peace in the truth
Children gain confidence
Women stop complaining
Men explore their soft side
Dogs nestle as a cat purrs

I'm like the cool breeze in the scorching sun
You feel relief as it dances across your skin
At that single moment, you know, life is worth living

I'll be back tomorrow!!! Just so you know - I am 151lbs today and just started a diet and did Day 1 of the P90X!!!!